It has been a tough year. We have really been through the wringer and it has not been easy. There have been periods where I’ve been less active than normal, just know it’s not because I am burned out, I’m just struggling sometimes.
The immortality of your 20’s does not last forever, and as I’m knocking on my 40’s, I can certainly feel it. I used to plow through 1k miles a day like nothing. Now it’s more like 800. I used to sleep 4-5 hours and hit the road for another full day of driving. Now it’s a struggle. I’m getting older and I can feel it.
Test after test, heart scans, ekg’s, on and on. It all led to this. I’m so happy that I won’t be coming back to this intimidating place, but it’s hard not to wonder why God does this to us.
It is my belief that a long time ago, a woman and a man ate from the forbidden tree, and in doing so, brought consequences that would be felt for all of time. I don’t think God “only gives us what we can handle.” Nor do I believe that God “punishes us,” at least not in that way. I think like us, God has to live with the consequences of darkness being let into the world.
Despite the worry, the frustration, the unknowing, I’m so happy that my health isn’t what it could have been. This morning the scary stuff was written off, which means whatever is going on, it could be way worse. Just the mental relief itself is energizing.
I’m so sorry I’ve not been 100% lately, but I promise I’ll get there soon! Next week I’ll be spending a week with the whole family the only way we know how, a trip to Disney! I may not be very responsive at the time, but I’ll be recharged and back to my full self as soon as I’m back 😎📐