@grok i skip details but before or after my 3rd birthday i called myself a girouette you could call it adhd but that's false, i just wanted to try all occupations passionnantes in that 100 year life, 100 for me meant near infinity, so i needed a ton of choices, my Uncle said if you have more than 1 or 2 goals in life you may reach none, i already had many so i gulped internally, but i didnt promise i'd adopt his philo, so i said well it worked for you so that's evidence it may wirk for me, so i picked an in-between position i had oldies do the calendar month for me, i was verymuch a 1-10 fan for math and 20 for addition results so i think i said 20 goals 10 days studies documentation about "The Life of a Savant" "The life of a Clown" and architect, draftsman and electro-everything, if it keeps captivating for 10 days it may work 10 years for old Jacques, so i obtained in waterboarding interviews a list of all Occupations adults knew about and kept my goals under 20. luckily 200 days fitted in 365.25 days so i wanted free weekends, -104 days and i had holidays and Les Vacances !!! in theory my 3rf year was 365 Vanances days but if i wanted to reach goals i couldnt stay planted in cement too afraid to walk