going live on youtube now. a time capsule. (10 years later)

10 Years ago today, I shot my Father & fled to Switzerland with what I thought was $30k in cash. It wasn’t. The money was spent. I was spent. And I was on the run now. When I finally tasted freedom, I was faced with an immeasurable guilt for an unforgivable act…I killed the man who wanted me to be better, albeit in his own sick way. “Don’t ever do what I did! Because I have to live with that now. And I don’t know if I can handle that…” I said, pleading to my Youtube audience. The Internet exploded as thousands of cop calls flooded in. The world watched in horror as the Psycho Kid confessed that he was leaving Youtube forever… We can all remember where we were and what we were doing the day that the Psycho Series ended, the day that we all learned it was a scripted show. The camera fell, I hugged my family, thanking them for enduring hell with me…and then I dropped to the floor and wept. I felt immense relief that I could finally rid myself of this burdensome character, but I also was hit with tremendous sadness and grief that it was all over. This was my crowning achievement, an homage to my childhood. I said goodbye to the kid in me… An odd poetry exists as my world has erupted again for a REAL tragedy…10 years apart to the day, fictionally killing my Dad vs a Dad faced with “killing his son”. The art will often MIRROR our real life in disturbing ways, that’s a true expression of the soul. It’s exactly why you found me. It has officially been a DECADE since the Psycho Series ended, the longest-running and most popular pseudo-reality web series on Youtube with over A BILLION VIEWS and 685 episodes. (arguably way more if you count the 10 other channels running simultaneously in-universe, love me some chillin & grillin). There’s not a day that goes by where I don’t reminisce about the Psycho Series. What I would do to go back to being 21, living at my parent’s house and filming silly Youtube videos with Corn. Becoming a big Youtuber felt like such a pipe-dream, an impossible goal to chase forever…to what lengths would I go? What story would I tell…? I know. A coming-of-age story…MY coming-of-age story. My “real life”. An exaggerated version of my old school Father with anger issues, a brother whose sole purpose is to torment me, a Mom who believes in me but lost her say and an Uncle who is my greatest friend and support system - the Dad that I never had. And then we’ll just break a bunch of shit. Video games, consoles, Thanksgiving Dinner, cars, rooms, pools, trailers…Literally anything we can get our hands on to hook people in. The Dad is a destructive machine and it’s making the kid CRAZY. All while he’s filming it for views and trying to show the world and his Pops it IS a career. Money rolls in, fans/haters become a part of the narrative and suddenly every single one of my friends and extended family members are in on it! Whether we’re shoveling pig shit with Uncle Chris at McCann’s Farm, playing Skyrim in a tent in the woods (Eagle’s Landing), getting spooky at Aunt Jackie’s house with two monkeys effing a football, my parents divorcing and my mom becoming an alcoholic with Mrs. Stahlberger or hunting for jobs and suckling ice cream from a spout at Toni’s Treats…it was always an adventure! I can’t thank all of you enough for what has been the greatest honor of my life, you have trusted me for over a decade now with telling stories and being a part of my family. You have truly made my dreams come true, that’s why I’ve always worked so damn hard to give it back to you. “McJuggerNuggets was always so fake” some would say, his series aren’t real…but the irony is that the ones who were there on the journey, you KNOW it was real. It was real to me. You can FEEL it in the subtext. (CONTINUED)

I’ve never seen such hate and vitriol for two people grieving the loss of their unborn child and making an impossible decision. The last 24 hours have exposed a side of humanity that is deeply disturbing. Being called “murderous pieces of shit, evil, compared to Hitler” and receiving NON-STOP DEATH THREATS. Seeing my 6-year old dog with Stage 4 Kidney Disease be used as a weapon, manipulating my words and intent in a tweet or saying we’ll regret this decision forever and must repent to God is absolute insanity. If you ever wanted to marvel at the depravity of people online, just check the replies on my latest tweet. It’s a shit-show of epic proportions. This is reflective of the current world and landscape we’re all living in. What’s more troubling is a lot of these people use God or Jesus as their justification for threatening us and wanting to cast us into Hell…seems pretty hypocritical. So many saying they would’ve kept the child, put it up for adoption or are suddenly ready to adopt a down syndrome child, that’s great! You can do all those things. However, many of the people throwing stones don’t even have children, let alone one with a condition and most likely will never do the things they say they’re going to do. There has been some heinous shit said about my wife and I on some extremely large accounts…It baffles me that there are such trashy-ass people who have significant followings. If you can’t contribute anything meaningful to the conversation aside from insults then just don’t post. On the other hand, there has been tremendous stories of people who kept their Down Syndrome baby and that’s awesome! Very courageous and they do look very happy! That is your choice and I support it. This was ours and we can do that. It’s very easy to accept the differences between us when it has no actual bearing on your life. What shocked me most of all was that this story has become mainstream news…A couple’s abortion is suddenly newsworthy in 2026…? There are over 1,000,000 abortions every single year for a myriad of reasons, this is happening on a DAILY BASIS and is the most common outcome for Trisomy 21, yet this one blows up and people are surprised…? The reason this blew up is quite simple: IT’S BECAUSE NOBODY TALKS ABOUT IT. I can’t blame people for not talking about these vulnerable experiences publicly because you see the disgusting backlash that ensues. It’s very divisive. Luckily, after 20 years on the Internet, this is par the course for me taking on the crazies, so I’m glad I can help further the conversation. That’s exactly why I wanted to share this story. People still need to see vulnerability and hear the raw truth. There is real suffering going on and it is being done in silence and fear. So many mothers have reached out privately commending us on our bravery to speak truthfully about this topic and we really appreciate that support! We want you to feel less alone in this and less ashamed. There has never been a more important time to speak up and out about the things that matter. Do not let the vocal minority stop you from sharing your truth. To those who have been affected by this or are confronted with a similar situation in the future, we have your back and please feel free to reach out. I’m sure this will follow us awhile especially when we try for a kid again in the near future. (CONTINUED)