This picture is threatening to do me in today. I have had Chris heavily on my mind yesterday and today. How would he be moving through this big day, and what would it be like to have him here? It doesnāt happen often, but today I had one of those times when I felt him next to me and almost saw a faint vision of him walking from our master bedroom into the kitchen. I had what seemed almost like a premonition of him in the day ahead.Ā
Today, I am getting ready to help Colton move out of our home and into the first home he will make with his fiancĆ©e, Kerry. I have had the uncommon and extraordinary blessing of living 21 full years with Colton, whom Chris called āLittle Man,ā even when he was very young, because something about Colton is just older than his years. He has never⦠not once⦠(other than when he was 2 or 3 years old) given me a run for my money. He is fun, light, adventure, and wisdom, all rolled into one extraordinary person. I have lived longer with him than with anyone else.Ā
Colton is getting married in a month. He is moving in to get their place set up and ready for Kerry to move in after the big day.Ā I am in my workout clothes, ready to move boxes and help with furniture. I wanted to share a different photo with you today. When I opened up my digital album, this picture popped up in an automated āmemoryā.Ā It about wrecked me because today I feel like I am putting on my emotional, mental, and spiritual āSuperwomanā outfit to do the beautiful, meaningful, and blessed work of walking with my son as he walks out from under my roof and into his big, beautiful life under his own roof.
Iām used to doing the Superwoman thing on my own.Ā
But this picture felt like a reminder, I am not alone. God walks before me, behind me, and with His hand upon my head. And today, it feels like Chris has his arm around my shoulder as his superwoman cracks his jokes, loves his kids, and cries his tears of joy and grief along with hers.