Under Anxiety
Among synthetics, methamphetamines, over the counter drugs, uppers, downers, and all the powerful drugs in the world, nothing beats a healthy dose of natural anxiety.
Anxiety brings the best and worst out of you. Generally you can obtain this high from too much coffee on an empty stomach, or right before going on stage to speak to a crowd of nobody cares. The latter is classified as "performance anxiety", and if all the world's a stage, then the bedroom becomes an opera house spectacle of disappointment. At first the humiliation, followed by your partner belittling you, and finally a sense of relief as you come to terms that you are not the Adonis from the figment of your shitty imagination. It is a crushing sense of realization, all part and parcel of being under anxiety.