I’m really anti -meds but I never get to defcon level. From what you are describing I think I would take them if it is just to break the cycle. It’s not an easy choice but people say they can help. You are not committing to take them forever. Good luck
There are lots of triggers, I won't list them all. EMDR is not an "in the moment" solution, its a long term therapy. I'm curious what anti-meds people think the answer is. I'll even try it. There just seems to be a startling disconnect between the no meds fantasy, and reality.