"What is Truth? Truth is a funny thing. Does it live in the world? Or in the mind? Is it Constant? Or can it be bent? Who decides what is true? In this universe of light & dark, there is no greater power." - Savathun, from Destiny 2! Did you know I broke my Prescription Eye Glasses??? Sighs heavily into the infinite darkness... Anyway.. they want 200 USD to take one tiny screw and screw it into one tiny hole because State Insurance does not cover Eye Care because only the Capitalists on the Hills want to see. You are too busy with your modern conveniences & your own insecurities that you do not care what our government or any government in the world does as it slowly brick by brick dismantles your rights.. not just any rights.. but your Shiva Given Rights, my dearies wake the heck up & smell some clovers or grevilleas. Actually my favorite flower has always been Lilacs as my late maternal Grandmother who was Romani in her ancestry loved that scent and as long as I had known the woman before she passed away she was always the kindest woman on earth. Kindess some think is a luxury they can't afford? Well you anti-empathic swine explain to me.. "licks lips". Why was she so kind? She had stomach cancer, she was poor, she was divorced twice I do believe, & hidden behind that tough kind exterior was a lonely woman in constant pain, but dear reader she was never rude to anyone. She was never cruel to anyone. She was just that she was kind. Do you think I moderated an old web forum in the early 2000s for my own health? No, and will come back to that... I was a small child when her cancer took her from me and the last words she ever told me was "It does not matter however much pain we are in, nor how poor we are, it does not matter because these things are temporary as temporary as a candle in a storm. A moment is that fleeting. You have one moment every half second she claimed to little kid me who soaked up every word this woman spoke like a sponge. So make each of them count. You don't know what anyone else is going through. As Grimmi says we are all going through it in our own ways. So why be kind? Are you too rich to afford kindness? Are you experiencing so much pleasure to not think about someone else's pain? "How many seconds are in eternity asked the King to a simple Shepards Boy. The boy replied: "Imagine a small bird & a mountain made entirely out of diamonds that stands as tall as Olympus. Once every 10,000 years that small bird? He sharpens his beak on the very point of the mountain & when once the first molecule has been worn away then you will have experienced the first second of Our Eternity." Any similarities between characters in my stories & real people are merely a coincidence, and no characters in the following use of my imagination are real. You won't always roll Snake Eyes! Why my dearies? Because roll the dice enough times & eventually you will get lucky & that's probability at play my dears. I am not a particularly lucky person, but if there is one thing I am certain of it's the madness of eternity. Imagine asked the Corvid to the Poet? "In his delusions the Poet Writhed shouting Nevermore as if he himself was the raven.." Imagine that you are wrong about every thing you ever believed was right? Can you take your world view? Make it as tiny as possible. The size of the world view of a small child. The first child loses his father one mourning while his father was plowing the field. No one's fault except nature as that boys father had heart disease no one knew about. Boy one we will call Sue because his father knew he wouldn't live long & gave him a name to make his son touch as nails in a world that thinks any thing feminine is inferior to masculinity. Boy two was born to a woman with illnesses of the mind & a father riddled with ptsd. His parents both live, but their marriage doesn't life. Boy twos father never had a father like Sue. He grew up not understanding how to be a parent because his own parents failed him. Boy twos father works as hard as he can because he feels guilty his father died working for the family when he refused to help his father the day he paced away. Boy Two we will call Bob. So Bob's father had a very similar life experience as Sue. What do you know. But the PTSD that Bob's Father & Sue have never gets treated like it doesn't for a lot of people. The ptsd makes Sue aggressive. Sue is not kind to anyone at home, only to people outside the home and so he gives everyone in his family PTSD. Here comes child three. Three is a magical number in the occult, look it up yourself if you think this is a bluff. Three's father wants to work as hard as he can for his family, he wants to do right where his father & grandfather failed. Perhaps the PTSD he got from his own cruel father has made him not want to stand in the shoes of people like Sue & do better by people. Bob & the father of child three have some similarities huh? So Bob.. he works hard, he tries to be kind, he has a temper he is aware of, he is insecure and he knows it, but his father was obsessed with masculinity & in so being was too hard on his son Bob. Sue didn't like being bullied. His toxic coping method was bravado and violence to fend off a cruel world. Sue's son Bob did not like how harsh & aggressive his father was. Bob might not have ever raised a finger but he did raise his voice so child three we will call Richard. Richard has PTSD like each father before him. Because people screamed at him, not a little, a lot, not over important matters that might have been productive, but screamed at over any small inconvenience or disagreement. Personally I would never raise my voice at all, but I am not Richard. Why am I rambling all this? Because each persons life changes when their world views are shattered. I just don't have the time to explain that part in detail. You will need critical thinking skills. Richard oh Richard. He is autistic. All the previous fathers had little to no knowledge of the things people know now about behavioral sciences and mental health. Richard however grows up in a time when knowledge is exploding onto the internet. Richard watches as the world changes before the flash of his lifetime. Richard never works on his problems. Why? Because voicing anything about himself.. how he feels, what he thinks, anything is usually meet with resistance. Richard is afraid to ever be open with anyone. His walls go up and he is anti-social. He knows something is different about him but Richard does not understand what Autism is until he is fully grown. He does not know what he has been experiencing is neurodivergence till late adulthood. By then he has so many traumas, and repressed built up emotions, that he has to find creative outlets to feed them into. Richard wants to become Rachel, but she knows that her father like Bob had been molded by Sue to detest that. So Richard never comes out as transgender. Richard never tells anyone about their traumas, their medical conditions, their mental health issues, or any thing at all. Because time & again people have proven to Richard they can't always be trusted and you can expect cruelty more often from mankind than kindness. Richard is afraid of her father. Afraid of being the disappointment that Bob probably thinks his son is. Richard wants to become Rachel however she also wants to be a parent of a biological child. Richard freezes her seed before becoming Rachel. At a sperm bank meant for donating to women looking for the seed to have a child without needing sex. Every "father" has now been taken out of the equation. Rachel broke the loop & gave life a chance. She isn't sorry for becoming herself & giving women every where a chance to experience motherhood something she will never know, because she is single, transgender, and beginning to get old. Rachel meets a young man at a job who looks just like her, sounds like her, everything. The boys mom is a lesbian in a happy loving relationship and it's not toxic. The boy will have a better childhood than Richard, Bob, or Sue ever did. So Rachel keeps her mouth shut & laughs. The boy asks what's so funny Rachel? Rachel just smiles and says has anyone ever told you about Liminal Horror, it's a genre of games, stories, & movies. That brief encounter inspires the boy who we will call Vladimir to become a horror novel writer. Vlad is blissfully unaware that Rachel who gave him the idea is his biological father Richard. Time keeps moving into eternity. That was not even a second of an eternity.. now imaging reading stories like this from the last 10,000 years. Can you imagine that??? What would eternity do to a mind with a finite memory? Madness. I am Azoth Evermore your Cognito Hazard, that means a virus of the mind. Welcome to Our Madness of Eternity. All aboard the Wolf's train next stop Entropy baby. Get you a zest for your life & the lives of others. "Never Cruel or Cowardly, Never Give up, Never Surrender. Always strive to be kind." - Doctor Who, the 12th Doctor Regenerating into Jodie's 13th. The following song was on repeat while I Azoth the Evermore wrote the above .... stuff. music.youtube.com/watch?v=Jb…

This is cool.

This art gives me Grimmi Vibes even though it’s probably not her. @Its_GrimMe

"唯美主義者 / The aesthete"

...... yep.

Ah Yes, One More Vtuber!!! Hora fans who follow him on Twitter will get the joke. Grimmi fans who are fans of both will get why I tagged Barghain. - Lmao @HoratiusDwarf @BarghainVT

I can relate Stolas.. I can relate. youtu.be/rATbtwj1qls?si=PXdw…

My go to statement when people insult me is to act genuinely shocked & disgusted then ask them if they are coming onto me. Makes them shut up almost every time. Except for the sadist, they get weird about it.

On the topic of Limerance: I hope my monthly Psychology lectures help the world in their small way.

Lmao

Hyrule’s princess just hit her final form 🖕

Good Birdie.

マンハッタンカフェ #ウマ娘 #ウマ娘プリティーダービー

My Oshi’s be like that: But they really are adorable though.

I still haven’t fallen asleep yet… I hate being an insomniac.

「日本ホラーゲーム大賞」のクリエイター審査員として、弊社CEOの外山、およびアーティストの髙橋が参加させていただくことになりました！ どのような独創的で恐ろしいホラーゲーム作品に出会えるのか、今から選考をとても楽しみにしています👻🔥 @K_Toyama @mikit_horror #東京ホラー特区!! #ホラー足りてる？

i laughed so much today HAHAHA

Yuppie Psycho is amazing and more people need to play it