Alright everyone, it's been a while. I've had a hard time trying to figure out what to do after retirement from VALORANT, I had some thoughts about coaching when I had just retired but I wanted to try something else, so I went to two different schools - one for game dev and one for coding - but I couldn't find the same fulfilment that I had while competing, and after quitting both I've been slipping both mentally and physically. It's strange looking back at all the success I had in competing, friends I made and the support I got from my family and friends, and now realizing how low I've let myself fall I don't want to stop gaming as it's always been my passion, after I stopped competing I've had a destructive mindset where I tied my self worth to my past, whatever I tried doing I felt like I was never doing as good of a job compared to when I competed. It's time to turn that around. So what now? I'm gonna start streaming consistently, giving myself a routine to follow. Lately I've been playing A LOT of Apex Legends so I'm setting a goal to hit the highest rank that I can in the next season which is in a week or two, giving a little bit of time to ready up and take care of myself. Going live on Twitch to test the stream and chat, come hang out! :) twitch.tv/bonecoldval

Haven't had so much fun playing games in a while, @PlayXDefiant hits different

Small preview for today's show #VCTEMEA

Very happy to get back to Berlin to be on the no-stress side of the stage 😂 Can't wait to see you all there :)

The two time 👑 #VCTMastersMadrid

Nah I can't 😂 @natu doing gods work Happy to see these two, Madrid's been awesome

Vibing out on Apex twitch.tv/bonecoldval