Having dinner with my wife last night for our 39th wedding anniversary, it did hit me. If Reform succeeded, I could soon be in prison for a crime I did not commit - there is every likelihood that I would have been behind bars for my 40th wedding anniversary.
All from a false complaint regarding a non-event months before, conveniently put to the police immediately after I criticised Farage.
This isn't 'cancel culture', they tried to put me in prison.
Now I'm told by the Farage sycophants that I should let it go for the 'good of the country'? I should 'move on'?
I had four armed police officers arrive at my home at 21.30, unannounced - terrifying my wife.
Under police investigation regarding entirely false allegations for over two months, having my name dragged through the mud. All driven by people I once considered colleagues, even friends.
Ask yourself - what would you do? How would you feel?
I understand these people are desperate for a seat from Reform, but bloody hell - have some dignity.
I have come to the firm conclusion Reform will not deliver the fundamental change that is required. The leadership doesn't want to smash the establishment, it wants to be the establishment - therein lies the core issue.
Are they best placed now? Yes. Can that rapidly change? Absolutely.
An administration required for the challenges ahead simply cannot be built on one man's ego, regardless of its unique earth-shattering size.
Four days is a long time in politics, four years is an eternity. A lot can change, and a lot will change.
So, do I go quietly and enjoy my retirement on a beach somewhere? Or do I fight to give the British people the genuine alternative they deserve? In whatever form that may take.
As much as I enjoy a mojito in the sun, I'm not going anywhere.
This is just the start.