okay i read your book, i dont wanna get parasocial but, im also an IGL player and a coach, ive coached around 40 players 1:1 but there were always 3 who were my prodigy children. one of them really wanted to go pro and asked me if id play and IGL for a team, i turned it down because of work and general life reasons too, so i feel that same weight and i hope you, irene and the rest are doing well- but you especially. i know how that feels