This reminds me of something I want to share because it helps explain why I’ve been quieter over the past few years (and why I’m back to being my usual loud and outspoken self)
After moving to Dallas, I came back to Atlanta for the holidays in 2023/2024.
Around that time, someone I loved deeply reached out wanting to try again.
I jumped at the opportunity, and in doing so, I made choices that shifted my focus.
I stayed in Atlanta, leaned heavily into the relationship, and gradually stepped away from coaching, content, and competitive while trying to support someone I cared about through a difficult period.
A week before my birthday, she told me she no longer wanted to be with me.
I was absolutely devastated, and for months following the relationship, I actually blamed myself, my ambitions, and Fortnite itself.
That experience taught me a lot about how easy it is to lose momentum by letting go of your own ambition and purpose.
I turned down opportunities I shouldn’t have with players I respect and would have loved to coach again.
The lesson I want to share is this:
You can love without abandoning your goals, your discipline, or your direction.
If you sacrifice those, you’re also letting go of core pieces of yourself, and usually getting nothing in return.
I’m rebuilding now, with a clearer vision and a more resilient frame.
Love you guys. Just gonna keep on being me.