Where I stand right now (and if you read all this- I have much better books i can recommend with better plots <3 )
MAJOR BRAIN DUMP/journal leak:
Iām so torn right now so forgive the brain dump but I want to be transparent on where I am with all this.
I've not been streaming it, but i also don't want to state that as definitive. Reasons?
1. Solidarity with the partners who have stepped down (I donāt want this to be a "move on" thing and then theyāre left after a sacrifice by themselves.)
2. Number spikes- I didnāt want to take advantage of potentially benefiting myself off of other peopleās sacrifices.(lots of people stopped for a few days --and names Iāve never even heard of rose to the top of the charts)
3. Promoting something still in discussion- I needed time to see what the situation was but also- I donāt want the game to die- but itās a hot topic right now (more on this later)
4. The month of May for me is St Judeās. Ive committed my efforts to that charity and I didnāt feel right streaming the game for children in the state itās in.
Hereās why I would stream it again:
1. The shittiness of a few individuals shouldnāt punish other people who worked on the update. The art team, sound team, devs, etc- this was all forced upon them. Their ability to fire someone is as good as ours. And for them this isnāt a streaming partnership- but their jobs/livelihood - the way they support themselves and their family. We want answers but Iāll stand on that I donāt think these people have those answers (or could share them if they did) and they should not be casualties of this.
2. I donāt want the game to die. Itās a comfort game for me; and my community. If you look at the end goal for all this- if it doesnāt actually get justice and simply kills the game- then does in some sick way Bruno win? Not in my book. We should be able to sail and enjoy this world while he rots in prison, free of him and anyone else that wants to prey on children.
3. This isnāt a black and white situation. There is so much grey area. Cancel rare and it affects all the people who work there who didnāt want this, support it, do anything wrong, etc. in fact (ruffle some feathers here) not even all the CMs are bad. The people guiding them, hiring them, watching for years--these people are simply bad at their jobs and letting it slide- yeah those people should probably go.
Iām not throwing shade at anyone streaming sea of thieves right now. We were all united I thought, and then fingers started getting pointed everywhere. (Internal sabotage imo.)
I LOVE this game. I love this game more than Iāve ever loved a game. Iāve been playing off stream just for the "home sense" and Iāll be honest, Iām highly unmotivated to stream anything else. I built streaming on sea of thieves.
But I have to hold to my own convictions. And I want to be true to my community and what I stand for.
But canceling the game does a disfavor to the people who did no wrong. The people putting their talents into this game and then getting bulked into this.
Bruno doesnāt get to win. He lost his access to a game he loves and used to prey on children with. We should confidently take back that space.
Iāve yet to stream sea of thieves since the info came out, but thatās not permanent. Iāve been giving it space to respect the victims, the people who sacrificed their partnership, and make a stand.
With all the bickering and loss of plot tho I feel like these very small stances (like my own) are muffled.
I said before I can only see one side to this- but that has changed. My heart feels so much for the victim (who will be effected by this for the rest of their lives) and also for the teams and individuals that didnāt ask for this to be their legacy in their work. Take it out on the people involved, but understand when you bulk a company as a whole you bulk people that thought they were doing the best they could. Itāll probably be years before anything legal is done, for now tho- (for me) if I stream the game these are my stances:
1. I am in no way forgetting what happened or moving on
2. I refuse to bully people in a company who arenāt guilty and had nothing to do with it
3. There are very specific CMs I think are simply bad at their job whether they knew what Bruno was doing or not- (but also some that are good at their job and remain professional) outside of that and the general CEO and command side that CAN control things- I cannot hate people who ended up being casualties of others actions.
4. Investigations and punishments are going to take years. We have a duty individually to both understand that and understand they canāt tell us whatās happening. We can either let the game die, or stand for the game we love and make it a better safer space for the community to heal after such a horrendous person infiltrated OUR world.
If you read all that congrats- damn, thanks for coming to my ted talk.