โ๏ธ๐ฆIMPORTANT UPDATE๐ฆโ๏ธ
โ ๏ธWARNING: GENDER DYSPHORIAโ ๏ธ
Iโm gonna be honest, Iโve been terrified to make this post for a good while now. Iโve been afraid of the hate that would come from it, the amount of people saying โyou sound like a man, you talk like a man, you act like a manโ. But I donโt wanna be weighed down by that fear anymore, and this felt like the time to do it
I AM TRANS
I go by she/her, I also am fine with they/them but no he/him. Iโve had several people in collabs call me he/him even when Iโve mentioned the preferred and I wonโt lie it always felt like my identity was being shut down. I know I donโt sound feminine, and those whoโve seen my face know I sure as hell donโt look fem.
But even still itโs who I am. I canโt out myself irl as I live in a setting where it would likely not end well, but I came up with this VTuber to be the me I want to be.
I feel disgusted when I look at myself in the mirror and see the masculine features I have, things that I canโt yet change without fear of severe consequences. Iโll see what I physically am and feel trapped behind the eyes of that shell. But when I saw a me that was feminine, I actually cried, it felt like I was seeing me and not my shell.
Ever since I first debuted my fem model it felt right, it felt like it was the embodiment of who I was. I hope one day to make more of an IRL transitions, but for now, the life that Nulli had given me is enough ๐ฉต
I hope you all will stick with me as I grow into the woman Iโve always wanted to be. If you donโt like this announcement and wish to leave feel free to do so.
Thank you guys for reading this far. I love you all, and I look forward to continuing on with everyone knowing who I really am!