Undiagnosed but Something is Definitely not right 😅
I hope you don’t mind a little rant; I think I just had an epiphany and would like to share because maybe others share similar stories.
I was watching this video about Autism and Body Focused Stimming. And It occurred to me. I’ve been “weird” all my life. I was born in the early 1990s and I feel like a lot of things went undiagnosed. Even to this day but especially back then.
When I was little I used to rock back and forth when sitting and if I was sitting against a soft couch cushion or laying on a pillow, I would bang my head against it, as the pressure would feel good and would help me focus.
When I was in school I would have trouble focusing and I was put into Occupational Therapy which ended up giving me this little blue air cushion that would have grooves or bumps that I would sit on that kept me attentive.
I was brought to all kinds of specialists that tried to figure out why I was bumping into things, not paying attention, touching items multiple times (because I felt like my loved ones would die if I didn’t)
I feel like I could go into more details about the challenges but it’s not necessary for this rant.
As I aged I learned to deal with these things and come off more “Normal”. To slide the stims and the focuses on different activities.
Like the Gym, Cosplay, being a Wrestler, doing Content creation, so on and so forth.
I’ve always felt like something was off, but have never officially been diagnosed. Only recently I was even diagnosed with ADHD which I knew I had for a while 😅
I still am unsure; and I don’t want to self diagnose. But maybe.. just maybe..