One of the most healing things I've done is start taking myself on dates. Somewhere along the way, I stopped waiting for someone else to make life feel special. Turns out, I can do that for myself. 🥰
Just out of my pre op consultation for my xanthalasma removal. Lawd the surgeon made me nervous lol. But on a good note, she unexpectedly gave me botox to help "lift" the area she will be working on. So I will be expressionless for the next few months.
I am in such a different mind set. I have never felt like this before. I was ashamedly the girl who always had a boyfriend/serious relationship since I was 15...Now I have no tolerance for bullcrap. Not in a mean way... I just dont have the energy for nonsense
Tonight's adventure included:
Leaving the house
Questioning all my life choices
Mediocre pasta
Exactly zero life-changing moments
Old me would have stayed home for weeks. Its easier.
Tonight I tried.
And honestly it feels like progress.
Put on my cutest pjs and gonna watch movie
Its evenings like this that I need to remind myself..
I would rather be alone in a restaurant than with someone who makes me feel alone in a marriage.
Some nights are heavier than others.