swimmer
the poet has a disorder.
he mistakes attention
for reciprocity.
give him a sharp mind,
a locked door,
a woman who says just enough,
and he'll spend months
learning the shape of the key.
he calls it connection.
the dopamine calls it pursuit.
so he writes.
he listens.
he remembers.
he sends the text.
he carries the weight.
and if one day
he decides not to,
nothing happens.
no message.
no question.
no hand reaching back.
just quiet.
not because she owes him.
because somewhere
he confused being wanted
with being met.
that's the trick.
his devotion never fades.
the hyperfocus never brakes.
it was the symmetry
that never existed.
he kept crossing oceans
for someone
whose feet never left shore.