UPDATE: Where is my head at right now❓
Folks, I've been feeling a bit weird as of late.
When I first got into crypto, I had just been burned with some stocks and was kind of floating around financially.
Soon after, my ex and I broke up. We have remained friends ever since, though, and I still spend my Christmases with her family and get invited to her family gatherings.
After the break-up, I ended up going quite hard on crypto. I was starting a new life and had a lot of newfound time to myself. I became super-active in many groups and got hooked in by the Ryoshi narrative.
I would spend countless hours in these groups: conversing, singing—and ultimately buying more.
I was super-confident about all of it, but it hasn't exactly been what it was cracked up to be. I bought into the mystery and the dreams and was expecting to come out better for it.
I'm now down probably more than 90% and struggling pretty badly.
After years and years in these groups, I now find myself mentally drained. Singing and joking around was great for a long time, but now, I feel it's become more difficult not seeing the irony in all of it.
Here's a Finnish jackass who lost his life savings thinking he was going to make it for years, more or less putting his life on pause as he was chasing a carrot that never came.
To make matters worse, I have realized how superficial a lot of relationships in crypto are. When I came in, I was hoping to make friends with like-minded people around the world. Now, I feel like most relationships in crypto are more so relationships of convenience.
Most people don't really care about you unless you are working hard for their bag. When things get tough, they will exit the space and never look back. It's actually akin to workplace relationships where you quickly lose touch with co-workers once you're not working together anymore.
Even though I've become quite jaded and cynical through all of this, there are still a few great communities that I feel share nice camaraderie and have a bunch of supportive and friendly people in them. For those people, I am very grateful.
More often than not, though, you are only as valuable to people as your shills are.
If I had to name people who I feel I've become close with in crypto, I would really have to take my time. There are only a handful whose real names I know and who know mine.
Anyway.
There are still some communities that I really like that I'd love to support more and that have good folks in them. However, my energy is so sapped that I constantly feel guilty for not hanging out in those communities more.
These communities include Kizuna, daCAT, QOM, and OG Treat. These are the four communities that most make me feel like I should be there more to contribute.
Let's hope that the tide turns, Clarity gets passed, and that our efforts have not been for naught.