I found out yesterday that my dad has passed away. The circumstances surrounding his death are tragic. I am devastated. Since my mom is no longer with us either and as the eldest of his children I will be responsible for most of the arrangements for his funeral, admin & the legal fallout that will follow. My parents were alcoholics. I've spent 16 years begging them to get better. I have to go into a house that holds a severe amount of trauma for me and I honestly don't know it's going to affect me. I ask for your patience and understanding regarding content, especially with what I'm about to say. As some of you will know I am essentially the sole provider for my little family of me, El and my little sister in a way where if I stop working then things come to a stop. Between 2023 and 2024 I worked hard to build a backlog of content so that if the worst should happen then I had something to fall back on. The worst did happen and then some. My mom passed away in November 2024 and a month later I had to have emergency brain surgery. I blew through any content I had backlogged over the following months and due to complications from my first surgery I haven't been 'healthy' until extremely recently. I haven't been able to re-build that back log. I am in a state of working week-to-week and whilst I know there will be countless people telling me to take my time, process everything etc. I just need you to know I'm not in a position to do that. I'm sorry if it looks heartless to still be putting out content and streaming when I can. I'm sorry if I cry. I can't afford to lose any more than I already have and if I were to take another break now there would be no coming back. I have to push through and keep my family safe. I thought I had more time. I'll be trying to stick to my usual schedule for content & streams. If I waiver I am sorry, this week especially I will just have to take day by day. I am going to do my absolute best though. Streaming & having this community brings me so much comfort. Streaming is my escape. Just please know I'm doing my best. If you have or do try to message me please be patient, I know I have a lot of ongoing collabs and projects. If anything is super important please get in contact with @_elxmxnt.

this is actually so in character for them😭