At the lowest point of my life, after my 6th suicide attempt, I was completely broken.
I had tried everything the world had to offer, and none of it could fix the emptiness inside of me. I was addicted to meth, drowning in depression, and convinced there was no hope left for me.
Out of pure desperation, I finally cried out to God.
I found a Bible, went into my room alone, and randomly opened it. My eyes landed on the words of Jesus:
“Come to Me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”
For the first time in my life, those words felt alive.
Right there in my room, I asked Jesus to forgive my sins, come into my heart, and fill me with His Holy Spirit.
What happened next changed my life forever.
I felt what seemed like oil being poured over me from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet. It was as if a bolt of lightning went through my entire body. Every hair stood on end. I was overwhelmed by a love and peace I had never experienced before.
It felt like Jesus Himself was holding me.
Then I heard these words in my spirit:
“Everything is going to be okay, son.”
In an instant, the hopelessness that had consumed me for years was gone.
I walked out of that room with a peace and joy I had never known before.
That was in 2016.
Since that encounter with Jesus, I have never gone back to meth. I have never attempted suicide again. I haven’t even desired to.
Jesus didn’t just improve my life.
He saved it.