I think its time for a coach, ive been at it for so long now and im still barely missing the markers i set in place for myself. People believe in me to make those markers and i continue to fall short of everytime, im mad annoyed with myself and it feels like ive done all i can 🫠
I was at 1580 at the start today and im at 1510 now, im not a consistent enough player to get top 50 may rn and im likely not getting it. I get it progress isnt linear but it truly feels like it takes me so long to get to spots others can just blink and get to idk what else to do