How Juan? Cuz I make happy music now? I think me just being happy is just as powerful as when I was in the dark if not more. Before there was lil hope, now theres so much more. Over 10 years of depression and suicidal thoughts, I think If i never made another sad song again my mission is still the same. Me being alive and happy is continuing the mission, NOT talking about wanting to blow my brains out and how sad I am. How many years of sad music can a man make before it gets lame?? "Oh ur always sad and crying about it" is all anyone would say. Im a 39 year old man. Something had to change. I cant live my life being a miserable fuck for ur amusement. Its like man at some point people start to look at u like u cant get ur life together, and I was tired of that. U gotta remember this shit is not a character Im playin this is my life, what I feel and what I go through emotionally. I want to be the example of a mad man who made it to the light. And thats who I am. Proof there is a better life after hell.