I had heard the term before, but never really ‘rolled it around in my head.’ Growing up on a farm, I spent a lot of time by myself. Since there was generally nobody to discuss whether I should or should not do something, the discussion was generally one-sided.
“Should I grab this rope and swing out over the corral? I’ll do it.”
If there had been someone else there, they could have said, “You could slip from the rope and find yourself up to your neck in cow manure.”
But there was nobody else, so I discovered how to get out of a pile of cow manure up to my neck. Eventually, I learned to roll it around in my brain – the start of living in my head.
I was taken out of 1st grade because all those little kids talking at once scared me. I spent the first few weeks sitting on the fire escape platform.
I have never talked much, but listened a lot. Took things in. Rolled it around in my mind. And now, I find myself living more and more in my head. Sometimes it gets rather noise in there.