I love sexting without the nudes. I love someone telling me what to do and exactly how I should be touching myself and guiding me through text as I make more spelling errors as I get lost in pleasure. Genuinely gets me dripping so much faster
Sometimes I wonder if I will ever heal. I know there are things I can never bring myself to agree to and I know it won't change. But it would be nice to one day not be riddled with anxiety.