alcohol restores health immediately but grants a stacking debuff. weed gives no debuffs, but restores health slowly over time. cigarettes damage health but grant valuable buffs
even throughout deep feelings of discomfort the will and hope of a future can be all someone needs and when that is threatened or changed it can be scary.. even when something like that is threatened you need to have the faith in yourself to carry through
the thought of parts of me being left behind or changed when im never sure if those parts were ever me is a scary one tbh
even if i say its all me and makes up me as a whole.. it doesnt mean its that idea is always felt and i think that scares me even more
i still think switching to a flip phone during the day is super helpful for my mental but the disconnect im having from seperate parts of my life have never felt more seperate