I'm a post abortive woman and let me tell you. You may try to convince yourself day after day (for decades even) that what you did was right. You will make excuses for why you did it to try and ease your guilty conscience. You will pat yourself on the back for your 'bravery' and because it was your 'right' to choose. But at the end of the day, you, like me, are just a selfish woman who murdered her baby.
It was up to us to protect the life that was entrusted to us. But in our sinfulness we put our own needs above that of a precious child made in God's image. And for that we deserve hell and to face the full wrath of God. But there is hope. For God sent His Son to take the punishment for the sins of those who would believe in Him. Past, present and future sins. All a person needs to do is repent and believe.
You can have forgiveness and true peace but it is only found in Jesus Christ.