I've gotten better since this post, just been working on getting my shit together and since then I have been feeling my health steadily get better.
I've just been busy clearing my commission backlogs, I'll admit I've taken a lot more than I thought I could handle.. so for my clients, I'm really sorry for the delays.
...managing my health and finishing up drawings has been a lot harder than I thought, but I am making steady progress at getting better at both!
please look forward to more of my works. I've been at it working on many drawings since then.. I've been feeling happier with drawing again.
I've been having problems with my heart for the last couple of months and have been back and forth from the hospital, feeling constantly weak daily and overtime I've steadily lost my confidence and became afraid to show myself to anyone.
during this time though, I've received such kind messages from people and friends who supported me. everyone else didn't give up on me and checked up on me constantly despite how I've given up on my own health.
blaming my heart problems is ironically ignoring the heart of the problem (...haha)
I am in this condition and have only gotten worse because of my own choices and negligence.
despite me being like this though, everyone still looked forward to my art and hoped I'd get better.
I really am extremely fortunate to have you all with me. From the bottom of my oddly quirky heart I wanted to say thank you so much, seriously.
I want to try my best again and take care of myself, and I hope my fears will go away over time. I'm sorry I haven't been able to make as much progress with my own projects and commissions as I would've wanted to, I say that both to everyone and to myself.
I will slowly pick myself up again.