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Jun 12
i think there's this sweet spot you find when you're discovering yourself that is both private and sincere. you are not obligated to share it. it is a vibe you register as peace or loneliness. a heart of sorts. perhaps the heart itself .
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Jun 11
i hope all my friends experience inner peace. i hope all my friends discover that self-acceptance grants pathways to new powers. i hope all my friends enjoy their relationship with their life. i hope all my friends commit to their right to be here, fully as themselves .
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Jun 11
funny as it'll sound, i don’t handle the weakening of infatuation gracefully. i like to keep the spirit intact. i get too much pleasure out of the allure, out of the mild obsession. i enjoy the mix of lust and intrigue, and i react poorly to subjugation of both .
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quite frankly, i just like flirting. it's how i play. i like when humor, wit, and curiosity find themselves on the cusp of temptation. i like the spontaneous descent from unfamiliarity into seduction that is only possible when we are mutually intentional .
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i'm worthy of someone who recognizes my divinity within themselves. i'm worthy of someone who finds me familiar because they dreamed me up several lifetimes ago. i'm worthy of someone who simply matches my fly .
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when i say i miss being in love, perhaps i miss the conditions that made it easier to forget the things i wanted to forget. i miss when a kiss was enough impetus to forsake the world .
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i don't agree with the notion that my life is a debt to be paid. i don't owe anyone victory, cookies or summary .
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i don't really care about being happy. i care about not being a liar. i want to look back on my journey and know that my moves and endeavors were honest .
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there are certain experiences that, as i'm living them, i recognize i won't be writing about. i'm in a very raw dimension, having and losing in moving time, immortalizing nothing you know .
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i'm meticulous and selective, and i'm learning to just sit with it. i think that moving towards the places where my name sounds softest is an expression of my spiritual mystery. but so is taking a sip of water, or writing in my diary. much of my life is only this .
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Jun 11
i should state that being family-oriented is so important to me because as the world evolves and changes and as we drift from life to life, it's nice to be able to look beside you and see someone you recognize. i look forward to extending my beautiful tribe ya feel me .
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i'm perpetually curious about how my past self survived, been painfully aware of the shift when those old feelings resurface. it does me no good to feign shame for outgrowing who i used to be. some people only know how to suffer, but for the life of me, i escaped that void .
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Jun 11
burning masala incense for comfort and peace. it gives every idea in the room a maple purple undertone. like the neon trying to soften its urgency against these black hours. like the neon blushing, unable to contain the glowing necessity of being seen, witnessing purple kisses .
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information is being manipulated and then redistributed to the public to keep them out of the know. but, if you remain close to the core of earth and form bonds with lovers on the ground, you learn how to see through all the smoke. unity is like poison to the powers that be .
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Jun 10
i really do miss catching flights and feelings though. that was really my steez for a while. can't believe we are so preoccupied with trying not to die, trying not to sink into suffering. we aren't even having fun anymore. i'm legitimately dumbfounded that this is real life .
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my rage has softened into a kind of skin, an undercurrent, a scent. everything is still urgent, but i can now move with the lightness of knowing that rage is intrinsic, that it's not a separate thing to pick up and put down. it belongs right next to my joy, and my creativity .
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