we also gotta stop conflating "passing as cis" with "being hot and sexy"
most cis people arent conventionally hot. theyre just regular people. and just because hrt didnt turn you into a fucking diety of perfection, that doesnt mean that you dont pass perfectly well.
this is gonna sound counterintuitive but i think if you are so consumed by dysphoria and caught up in your looks and your perceived flaws and faults... you might just need to get out more and remind yourself what other people look like