Another reason why it's hard to speak out is that I'm scared my friends and family are probably tired of hearing the same thing from me over and over again, or that my problems are too trivial for people to care about. Or maybe it's just that I'm just a boring person.
Cause it's not as simple as feeling sad, it's like a persistent annoying filter that keeps forcing you to see the world in gray even in happy or peaceful moments, a voice that keeps telling you that nothing matters. No point speaking about it when all it does is complicate things