A societal stance my autistic brain can't comprehend is how acknowledging that someone has treated you badly and calling them out on it is considered more disrespectful than actually treating someone badly. It's as if drawing attention to a misdeed is worse than committing one.

one of my old psychiatrist's absolute greatest hits: the closer someone is to you, the more you treat them as you treat yourself. it's as though they eventually enter the sphere of your inner world. we have to stop being cruel to ourselves or we will be cruel to others, in time. i don't make the rules and i don't obey them and my loved ones have paid the price.

ptsd: something terrible happened to you. complex ptsd: something terrible WAS your entire environment and you had to just live in it. there was no escape.

people be like… i hate you cause when i was manipulating you, you abandoned me LMFAO

I used to be a people pleaser and then I realized I never got anything I actually wanted and that my relationships were based on mutual unspoken resentment. So I pivoted to a life of asking for what I want and being seen as an often disagreeable and difficult woman. Much better

they mean they'll change their entire personality into something you like until they feel they've trapped you

Notice how you don’t stop being favored, loved, or blessed just because someone doesn’t like you. Lmao exactly.

Still Having sex with exes who did you wrong asf in the relationship is poor pussy management & rewarding bad behavior.

Making someone feel delusional for accurately sensing deception is the ultimate form of betrayal.

Can’t name a time I didn’t figure it out

everybody wants closure from their ex. i just want my money back

i don’t want nobody to think i still got love for them, i don’t fwu at all gang

The dirtiest manipulation during a breakup is when a person has already decided to leave u, but they are too much of a coward to take the first step. They are afraid to make that decision and take responsibility, so they intentionally create unbearable conditions for u. They provoke u into arguments, emotional instability, and push you to the point where the idea of ending the relationship comes from u. So that you are the one who does it, and the blame for destroying the relationship falls on u.

13 days here and over $1,000 in my pocket. Am I an actual genius?

Me when the job requires i be in the same place for over two hours: I'm gonna kms

Once something feels like a game to me, it's a wrap. Seeing those deposits hit my business bank account is addicting.

There is something really special about only seeing a man once a month. I am prescribing myself men AS NEEDED. Not a daily dose. The build up makes me nauseous.

see, i was in the trenches

I was so prepared for the puppy blues or whatever. Cooper has been a dream and folded into my life seamlessly. I dont know how or why. A blessing from Quake.