25. 7 years EDNOS. Weight goes down. weight goes right back up again.

Joined April 2010
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So I got a Fitbit. In what universe did I think it wouldn't trigger me into compulsive calorie watching?!
Managing to stay distracted. #mindfulness #colouringforcalm
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I think my brother heard me throwing up...
Third time today....
It may be sunny outside but I'm still wearing a jumper because I'm FAT and just want to hide away!
I've just pigged a whole Time Out and now I have an overwhelming urge to throw up but I can't because I'm at work....
Scoffed two cakes....I don't need to say what happened next.
I'm still so bloated! IBS tablets haven't helped. Aqua Ban hasn't helped (although was taking at same time). Any suggestions??
Stocked up on IBS tablets and Aqua Ban. One way or another this bloat will go!
In what way did I ever think it was a good idea to make cheesecake?! The repercussions have not been pleasant!
The awkward moment you're in a restaurant & you freak out when ordering dinner & nearly burst into tears #edproblems
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I'm actually ashamed that I've let myself get this fat & I'm terrified everyone will notice! Especially those I've not seen for a while
So I started the day crying because I'm so fat and ended it by throwing up my dinner & the brownie my bro made. I am so ashamed!
Looking in the mirror is NEVER a good idea! Especially when you've gained a ton of weight & you're now extremely fat. Now I'm crying!
There's still too much in my stomach...
So I made banana bread. I ate the banana bread. I threw up the banana bread. It's not even 3pm!!
And after dinner comes my sweet tooth & it's Friday which will be a mug cake & I know for certain if I have that I'll throw it up!
I have an overwhelming sense to throw up & I'm terrified that if I eat dinner that's exactly what I'll do....
'Happily' ate dinner. Then raided the kitchen & made a mug cake. Then I threw up. I hate to say that's not the first time in recent weeks...