నిద్ర రావట్ల 🙃

tell me how to read books at night while trying to sleep. > i can't read a physical book without turning on a light > i can't turn on my light since that ruins my incoming sleep > i shouldn't read an online book either since that counts as a stimulant again wtf am i supposed to do!!?? 😭

my brother-in-law (husband's brother - 35) got his wife (32) pregnant just after 1 year of their 1st baby's birth. she went to the doctor yesterday for scanning and it was revealed that the heartbeat of the baby was so low to even sustain it. the doctors suggested that she had to get it removed. she went to another hospital to get a second opinion. even the doctors of the second hospital suggested that she had to get rid of it. i just can't understand why they're rushing for a second child right after their 1st pregnancy. i read somewhere that the woman's body takes around 1 year to totally recover from the shock of the delivery. in this case her body should've been so weak to even carry and sustain a new life. it's better to wait for at least another year before going for a second pregnancy. why are some couples so desperate when it comes to kid. why can't you take care of yourself first, both physically and mentally, before bringing a new life to the earth ⁉️

current situation: I'm stressed about not being able to sleep on time 🔁 i can't sleep since I'm stressed about not being able to sleep on time

i've been posting a lot of real life incidents lately that have been shared to me by my friends, relatives, parents and neighbours. some doubt if they're even real or i'm making it all up. i can attach no proof of such conversations really but i can assure that they are all true. i don't lie. i never lied on this platform. i don't really have an imagination power so strong that i can invent stories as wattpad writers. i don't copy any of these from instagram or reddit posts. i don't even take inspiration or modify a story just to gain views. i need to be in a position to answer you all back when questioned on the content i share. and if i just start with lies, i need to build lies upon lies all in the comments, which shall eventually drain me mentally. i wanted to share these stories since i want to know various opinions on these real life incidents from different 3rd party perspectives. sometimes i take your opinions back to the real people facing these incidents if i feel they can be helpful to them. i share here, my opinions, thoughts and my life happenings too and not just of others.

Thyroid is normal - 1.1 Haemoglobin is sufficient - 12.4 doctors pointed out that it's all about stress and anxiety 🙂‍↕️ drink buttermilk folks, take care 🙂

my maid randomly asks me Rs.500/- or Rs.1000/- as an advance citing rice and grocery purchases. she gets all of them for free from the ration shop. and if i give all the money as an advance, i can't cut the money if she goes on long leaves or doesn't do the assigned work properly. not that i cut the money but i say that i shall cut if she isn't on time or takes too many leaves. should i give her the money in advance or no? why does she even ask for it? is she lying?

I was once made a class monitor for nursery children when I was in my 9th class since the teachers had a long running meeting with the principal. that was the sleeping period (nursery kids were made to sleep for 1hr post lunch) the teachers very well told me to separate boys and girls for their sleeping period. i laughed at it. I asked the teacher, why there was even a harm in it since they were so young. The teacher later told me something that's shocking. the boys when made to sleep beside the girls were lifting their frocks up, pulling down the underwear and trying to insert sharpeners and erasers. she told me not to underestimate the boys just because they were kids. that was the day I understood, some patterns are inherent, needn't be taught and can grow dangerous if not curbed at the right time. it's the sole responsibility of the parents and the teachers to correct the boys in their behaviours even if it requires a beat or a slap. they need to be strict with the kids right from the young age. don't ignore these patterns as a childish behaviour.

for all those men who are ok with what they're earning right now, this is for you 👇 my senior started with Infosys with a salary of 3.8 LPA right after college. she worked there for 3 years. meanwhile, her parents started bringing her the marriage proposals. she didn't, at that point, want to get married and told her parents to give her sometime since she wanted to earn atleast 1L per month before getting married. the parents waited, she started preparing for product based companies. she got a job in Micron for 15LPA. she started earning close to 1L per month. and she was 25 yrs old. the parents resumed looking matches for her. but her new condition was that the boy should at least earn 25-30LPA since she was already bringing home, 1 lakh per month. the other conditions: > he should be working in hyderabad > he should have no bad habits (smoking and drinking) > he should be from the same caste > he should be from a decent family > the family should be slightly richer than her's she's now 28 years old and still looking for matches. a boy who meets all her expectations isn't yet found. if the boy belongs to her caste, well mannered from a decent family, he's not earning more than her. if he's earning double than her, of the same caste and is working in hyderabad, he has bad habits. she still is hopeful and not striking off even one of her criteria. win or loss, good or bad, girls continuously are switching jobs, aiming for higher salaries themselves, and are aspiring to marry those who earn double or triple their numbers. Boys, no time to rest!!

Parents, if you plan to marry off your daughter right after college regardless of whether she wants to work or not, then don’t educate her in the first place and waste your money.

I know of a neighbour who got married 2 yrs ago. just along with me. she was earlier working in HCL on semiconductors. she was just having 1.6 years of experience fresh after college when she got a proposal where the boy was working in a PSU (public sector) she immediately agreed to it and they got married. she still wanted to work and was living in chennai. she meanwhile wanted to look for remote jobs but since she's working on hardware, there weren't any such remote opportunities in her field. she used to come visit her husband here over the weekends or he used to go to chennai sometimes to meet her. they did this for over a year but she got pressured by the husband and her mother-in-law to leave the job and come stay with him. when she asked as to why he wanted her to leave her job, he answered "if you were earning more, i would've compromised but you're not even earning half of what i was earning. what was the need of such a job?" she was devastated. she complained to me that she wanted to work. she wanted to earn her some money. she takes pride in what she does even though the amount is low. she wants to grow in her career and see to how good a level she can climb. she eventually left the job and is depressed now. parents pour lakhs on the education of their children only for them to get married and her husband to cripple her aims and ambitions. his father-in-law raised an educated kid and saw her growth while the husband can't even wait for sometime to see her grow in her career and support till she achieves what she wants. and demeaning her job on the grounds of less salary is something that's so unbearable. they didn't talk about this earlier and it's a mistake of both but the husband not supporting his wife's dreams is a big red flag.

BP - normal Heart pulse - abnormal Haemoglobin is alright ECG given - slightly higher heart rate taking rest for a 2nd ECG after 2 hrs thyroid test tomorrow 🙃 hey bhagwan 😮‍💨🙏

my maid has 3 children and none of them have got any good education. they're all now unemployed searching for day-to-day jobs. what's more shocking is that, one of the sons got married without having stable employment. he even has a kid now just after 1 year of getting married. i can't understand how they get the courage to take the next steps in their lives when they clearly are dependent on their parents' income still. when the educated people are considering not getting married and not having any children, the uneducated and the unemployed people are proceeding to have 3-4 children. this can cause a great imbalance in the future between skilled and unskilled, educated and uneducated.

some disturbing things my brother-in-law said to me: just after 3 months of marriage, my brother-in-law (husband's brother) asked me "did you get a grip on his clothes? do you know what he wears and what he prefers to wear when going out? cuz if you learn that, it will be easier for you to pack his clothes during journeys" first of all... why the FUCK do i need to get a GRIP on what he's wearing? second of all... why the FUCK do i need pack his bags when travelling?

I'm crumbling under my own expectations, responsibilities and goals. it's just so hard to follow a routine when everyday is an uncertainty. life after marriage is extremely crushing when I'm trying to balance household chores and work. i never, in these 2 yrs woke up enthusiastic for the day ahead. i never wanted a day to end and a new day to begin in the first place. i don't even want to take care of myself, feed myself let alone my husband. i just am dragging everyday and making the show run but not in the way i wanted, i expected. no one tells you that marriage is all about responsibilities. they just hype it up unnecessarily. if given a chance, i never want to get married. the sacrifice is so huge, it's soul crushing.