i want to be happy more than anything but no matter how much i try to be optimistic and positive i always just end up feeling like this again theres no point i dont know why i subject myself to the false hope that one day ill get better when it always ends the same
ADHD is having the day off and thinking of 1,000 ways to enjoy it, deciding on none of those, and laying frozen by your own inability to choose an activity.
I hope your choices eventually lead you to happiness. I don't wish for the alternative for you at all. I do hate that you left me even more broken than I was when you met me due to your lies. But even then, I still naively believe anything you say despite your actions you take.
“But you survived” I disassociate, like a lot. My heart drops when someone raises their voice. I shut down very easily. I'm far too observant. I always feel like a burden. I isolate often. But yeah, sure, I guess I survived.
according to psychology one of the hardest part of having ADHD is this, when you really care about someone your brain just doesn’t notice them it fixates. their tone, their timing and the way they text back. every tiny shift starts to feel like a signal because ADHD doesn’t just affect attention it affects emotional regulation.