I used to be a genius.
Im not overexxxagerating,
its true..
Everything was easy for me,
understood things fast.. connected dots.
My teachers at kindergarten help me to skip first class in school and start with 1 year older than me, because they taught I was too smart...
Something happened along the way,
something "bad" took over. And I kind of lost that edge.
I remember looking down on the nerds in school (sorry nerds I love you..),
and today understand that they where mirroring the way I was supposed to be. Building, creating,
TECHMAXXING.
So many hours spent on unnecessary things in front of the computer could have been used to build.
But this forced me to look within over the years,
find myself,
find my gift again.
I talk a lot about the inner game,
presence,
awareness,
inner work,
spiritual stuff..
But the "other side" of this is me building stuff,
using my creativity, when I get out of my own way into flow,
connecting with something beyond the mind,
finding solutions,
following signs..
thats what im doing now..
finalizing stage 1 of my app: MemoChat.
An app for the conversations too alive for text.
The voice notes you send the person you actually care about. The 3-minute debrief to your best friend. The "I miss you" to family across the world that hits different when they hear your actual voice instead of reading it.
Text flattens everything. The pause. The laugh. The way someone says "I'm fine" when they're not.
MemoChat keeps all of it.
That's the other side of me. The builder. The one who lost his edge for years and is finally getting it back, not by grinding harder, but by getting out of my own way and letting the gift come through again.
The inner work cleared the path.
The building is what walks down it.
Stay tuned.
an remember,
flow, not force.