I couldn't stop blowing my accounts, no matter how hard I tried.
Last year, before my first payout, I fell $200-$400 short 3 times.
Each time.. I tilted and gave it all away.
At my worst, I was tilting once a week. Sometimes losing half the account. Sometimes losing the whole thing.
The crazy part?
Every single Sunday I'd tell myself there was no way I was doing that again. Why would I? It was the most painful, stupid thing I kept putting myself through.
Then the next week would come.. and I'd do it again.
I genuinely felt like I had no control over myself. Completely helpless. I KNEW that if I just stopped tilting I would have already had multiple payouts by that point.
So I sat down, got real with myself, and wrote these rules.
I literally have not tilted since (going on 5 months since last minor one and 8 since last major one)
1. It's always the small things that start it. Anything over 2R. A subpar entry. A pre-open trade. These don't just cost you one trade โ they start a spiral. Cut them off before they start.
2. You will always think you won't. Every single time I tilted, I was confident going in that I wouldn't. That confidence is the trap. It is always possible. It creeps in before you even realize it.
3. It's not that deep. The second you step outside, you'll have forgotten about it. And instead of sitting in a loss, you get to celebrate the fact that you just beat the thing that used to destroy you.
4. You will forget about the loss by next trading day. Every time. Without exception.
5. It's supposed to feel hard. To break this for good you're going to have to sit through feelings that are genuinely gut-wrenching and do nothing.
The discomfort IS the work. Expect it. Welcome it. And you will breakthrough ๐ช
66 days to build the habit. That's all it takes ๐ซก