The biggest problem with us, the seekers of deep spiritual wisdom, the applicants of numerology, astrology and other mystical arts, is not the troubled mind we are left with in this realm.
But that we so desperately seek a way out of it.
Instead of using the rage sitting within our hearts as fuel for our actions, and utilising the grief burdening our being for slowing down our lives, we are falling victim to it.
We are desperately drowning in the very thing given to us as tools to free ourselves. We are so hopelessly desiring to escape the very energy that is needed to alchemise the pain hurting our souls.
And we can't even recognise it.
So lost are we in the loop of running and fleeing, of trying to feel better without integrating the lost and forgotten part to truly become greater.
We know we deserve it.
But we don't know how to achieve it.
While in truth it is all so simple.
Surrender and Faith are the only answer.
And for the dearest seeker the doors to the heavenly realm of understanding the Truth to it all will open. Guaranteed.
The only limiting factor is time.
And you won't be able to rush it.
So, sit with your trouble, and let it work its magic. Because eventually, it will all make sense. It will all be clear.
Let the shadow of your being consume you in all its raging darkness. Allow yourself to become the one your are so deeply afraid to be.
Let it destroy you, so God can give birth in you what he buried beneath all along.
Your unique divine Existence itself.