for those who are wondering what's going on with me or where DIVINE is, etc etc, this tweet's gonna explain what's going on
for those who are in the know you probably already know this information and ive not been forthcoming with what's going on because of the emotional toll it's been taking on me.
if you don't care about me or anything else, feel free to stop reading here and just read this paragraph: divine is over and my belt shop is going to be much less active from now on. commissions and private work are done for good. maybe close friends.
hosting a fed is really hard. like, really really hard. lots of people underestimate that fact, but it is. it's emotionally exhausting. constantly talking to tons of people, lots of whom you've never really spoken to before, coming up with fun ideas, how to keep shit interesting, it's hard.
doing all of that, WHILE also developing, and barely relying on other people for assistance, is even harder. doing that while trying to wrangle clashing egos, bickering and controversy, and more, all of this takes a pretty major toll.
the whole time i was incredibly excited to work with some great friends behind the scenes and make this fed finally work. i really believed we had something great going, and this was gonna be the one that i'd actually be able to be proud of when it was done. i personally poured over 60 hours into design work for DIVINE, logos, graphics, etc. 20 in developing for the arena, managing our physics and DBTech customization, addtl weapon creation, and more. working with our story team (particularly EvenxFlow who was 100% the biggest piece of why I didn't just give up in week 2, truly one of the better friends i've had and one of the greatest guys i know.)
the amount of untapped potential that divine as a brand had is huge, obviously. it's sad to me that we won't be able to continue as we planned.
so, why did we end it?
truth be told, it was my decision and mine alone.
late in the evening of december 21st, going into the 22nd, my best friend (whom for the sake of their privacy will remain nameless) passed away after a long and hard battle with mental health issues. they remained somewhat stable in the hospital throughout the day but their condition rapidly declined in the evening. they would've died alone, and forgotten, had i not been there. that evening's episode of DIVINE was cancelled as a result, as i could not host the show and attend to my dying friend, obviously.
losing your best friend, so early in your life, someone you've known since you were in diapers, is often worse than losing a family member. part of you is, in no uncertain terms, ripped out of you. their presence never leaves you; but all the good times you had yet to make are locked away forever.
this friend was supportive of what i did. they bought belts from me when i was starting to encourage me to make more. they loved this. they'd be sad to see me end DIVINE, and i am of course very aware of that.
ive had a long journey in ro-wrestling. it's a dumb community full of dumb people, but there's a silver lining that wraps itself around the entire community; i'd argue one of the few things that gives it value
the good people, are good. the creative works, are allowed to roam free. there are talented folk making great things, who will go on to do great things. maybe one of those people will be me, who knows.
i've met some of my best friends through this community. people who i have, to rely on, because they're still here. in no uncertain terms, these friends are the reason im still kicking.
here's a shortlist. sorry if i left you out. not ranked in order, rather the order i found your twitter handle.
@Evenx_Flow
@all_isnot_found
@CCriticalRBLX
@Warm_Healer1031
@AskForHeaven
@CKPUNK4LIFE
@LALuchaNJRW (rip)
@gimmickmeister
@JustDewIt10
@StevenSpectacle
@sockaki_
@Critheism
@cailsz1 (even though we don't talk much, i considered you a friend c:)
and for some non-twitter shouts, shoutouts to Felc, the Cowboy CC1, Akira, Blackstar, Rothia, Sinyu, and all the other incredibly talented people I worked with at
@NJRW2014 who helped me cement the end of my in ring work the best way we could. Nothing but love for all of you. It really was some of the best fun I've ever had.
you all are awesome. i hope each one of you keeps on doing great things. some of yall have been around with me since the beginning, and for that, i thank you.
sorry we couldn't do the big one, felc and bsb.
and yeah, i paid elon $3 to make this tweet long. whatever. i hate this platform.
divine will go down as one of my favorite projects on the site. one of my own original works. the memories we made in it were brief, but, frankly, funny as fuck. divine intervention will always have a place in my heart.
if anyone wants to reach out about potentially acquiring the DIVINE licensing, and is truly passionate about reviving takedown like I was, feel free to DM me on discord. - @ zachhorizons / we'll discuss. i won't accept just anyone though.
for real, this time, i don't wanna make another one of these tweets ever again.
gonna end the tweet with some song lyrics i feel are poignant.
let the tides carry you back to me //
the past, the future //
through death //
my arms are open //