thinking of qifrey having an obsession and detachment to olruggio at the same time... something abt merely seeing him as a concept he's obsessed to chase after, slowly growing detached from reality kind of level... (does this make sense)
the olruggio who's with him through thick and thin. who sacrificed himself for him. the endlessly kind and radiant olruggio...
he's doing anything to maintain that perfect and unaware olruggio, who's meant to be by his side. he's living that life now. that's the life HE promised
while i do enjoy QO and passively consume it, one of the biggest reason why i get easily squicked out by their dynamic is bcs it's seemingly overrun by alot of mpreg tropes and i kept getting jumpscared by it unprompted going through their tag (i stopped after the 4th time)
idk why 2 ppl bookmarked this but i now feel the need to clarify that this is not to disregard the mpreg content in OQ (which i actively avoid) either, but it's somehow much more manageable to BE avoided on this side than it is on the other side,,, ๐๐ฆ
pls be kind whoever bookmark my post... i swear i'm speaking only of my own preferences... i'm a very fly-high-do-wtvr-u-want person and i'll block/mute as necessary... i'm just here to yap and draw...โ๏ธ๐ฆ
lately there's been so many ppl complaining and nitpicking on little things in fanfics that are, frankly, such non-issues,,, pls stay strong writers,,,!!
[WHA SPOILERS] one time qifrey trees out but refuses to tell olruggio how to 'fix it' despite his begs and pleads and he knows he's throwing a tantrum and he's being uncooperative but he's so tired and he just wants to end it all... until olruggio starts to cry in front of him.
[WHA SPOILERS] and it's the worst case of hysterics: full on bawling and shaking, looks like he might throw up if he cries any harder and really, what else can he do but to tell him...?
the guilt of hearing olruggio's broken sobs and repeated 'thank you's still eats him alive...
[WHA SPOILERS] i wonder if there's ever a time that olruggio cried when he found out how much qifrey is suffering the whole time (the huge empath he is) and he kept on apologising for hurting him... and qifrey had to erase that memory too