#1 (the self) virtual journal

Joined May 2019
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If you find this account, shut the fuck up about it and just keep it moving.
I am positive now. all my thoughts are positive. I'm not depressed. im working through things that are challenging, and it takes effort to overcome them. im not used to taking charge but I will get better. This is a good first step
She's boring and juvenile
I hate life right now. Trying to be positive
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i was driving around fulshear yesterday. appreciating the scenery and what not. i really enjoyed it. i was thinking about paloma tbh. lmaoooooo. not related but i want a gf. too bad im trash rn... FUCKC CUFKC UfufuCK FUCK!
this is like the millionth time i'm attempting this, but i'm gonna try to get my life back together. -diet/exercise -sleep i really wanna buy some adderall. i shouldn't though, but i really want to... man, i should go out and smoke a cig right now. i really shouldn't though, b
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i have no goals or aspirations anymore. i feel lost in life. i think i have a drug dependency. i give in to sexual impulse too fast. i'm tired. i'm tired. i really am. i'm a perfectionist who lacks the will power to strive for perfection. god please help me
then why does it feel so bad.. why do i feel so bad
asdfasfadsfasd <--- look. youre allowed to do that
why am i worried about posting low quality shit. why do i have posting anxiety on this account wtf. who cares. you can do whatever the fuck you want in here this is your space you dumb mother fucker
I wanna feel drunk but i cant because i took adderall
[DELETED PIC] This was during a 1-2 month period of my life, when I was just couch-hopping and I didnt know whether or not I was gonna homeless. I remember it being a terrifying yet exhilarating time of my life.
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I remember mentally preparing myself to be ready for any and every scenario that might occur, whether it's selling drugs or stealing from Wal-Mart. I was even prepared to fly to a lounge located in the Rocky Mountains that was willing to pay boarding/3 meals a day
Gonna sex Tinder girls. Cope for emptiness I feel? Maybe Maybe i just like fuck >:^)
I know what good is. Not sure whether I've accepted what I think good is yet though. If I make it 1 week cold turkey. Glory be to God.
Desperately wanting to become someone who follows through with what they set out for themselves. In reality I'm just someone who pretends he has it all together.
I might be going crazy. Gonna really try to be sober this week. I don't even think I've given myself a tolerance break for two years. This is fucking unhealthy man.
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Going NoFap No drugs Clean diet for a week. NO EXCEPTIONS Hopefully by the end of the week a stable routine is established and I can move on from there
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This WILL be extremely difficult and the devil will try to lure me into temptation. Hopefully I can remain resilient
What am I doing. Why does it feel like I'm stuck again. I'm going to do something about this