I learned to love myself. This meant living morally right or what I thought was morally right. Little things. Hold the door for someone, don’t throw trash out the window, help when you can, give when you can things that made you feel good, grow food, be with nature, don’t screw ppl over for money, etc. I came into money, something I created was distributed worldwide. I woke up one day and decided to pay off my parents house while living with a married couple. These things became natural. I got more satisfaction for doing that for them compared to anything I’ve done for myself. The next year I bought my land and house. I had no job, haven’t had a job in a decade. I worked on things I enjoyed, not for money. It just came. I didn’t believe in God, I believed in a creator, but I opened up my heart enough for him to work through me only reinforcing the good work. I truly believe this. I always had faith that things work out. Because of my own life showing me. There is ups and downs, you will make it. Then very recent, he made it obvious that he was God and he was the living God. When this happened I knew myself very well. I don’t live like other men, I don’t spend my life working 9-5 for men, I live a secluded life, I try to provide for myself and not rely on any man. I did things that I can love. Free food stand for the community (example) I knew my feelings and emotions. Im aware when I stress, when I overthink. What I experienced was not from me. I understood clearly, my heart wept. My entire body wept. I still weep. I can look back and see how he was there all along. I did not do those things on my own. The things other people said, that I didn’t believe, became clear. They were very helpful to reflect on. Now i’m that one you might not believe. I’m happy to be here. Not to make you believe anything, but to share my experience. God will handle it. Stay strong and learn to love yourself so you can love others. Through that truth, God will be there I guarantee, he is there. Love him with all your being. I am here for anyone. Not with an agenda, not with judgement, not with symbolism, real and raw glory for God through his son Jesus. Who fulfilled the covenant where he circumcised your heart and gave you his only son. So that you could know him yourself in your heart, not needing to hear it from man and for the forgiveness of your sins so you can be righteous before our living God.

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I was wondering.

Sus. Some “US government entity” claims it can be jailbroke by telling it to read some source code and fix errors. I’m assuming the “source code is malicious” but man this seems very sus. Marketing? Exercising power? What you think.

Got them. Btw this in the dogwood family. Cornus florida is our native (to the US) flowering dogwood. The ones you see flowering early in the spring with the red buds. Cornus mas however produces edible fruits and can grow in the shade. Not very common you find a fruit tree that can grow in the shade. They are understory trees. I have two now, one that produces red fruit and one yellow. Not an easy tree to find.

I’m glad one day I decided to not live like others. No 9 to 5, no mortgage, no maxed credit cards, no new car, no jewelry or tattoos. I don’t see how you do it. It feels weird watching. Like sitting watching ants. They look busy, but what are they actually doing. Why are they doing it. Some are so lost they are about to drown on a drop of water. One is fighting for food when there is 100 times it’s body weight around the corner. Oblivious. It’s surreal how my life works compared to others. I work hard on things I enjoy, but then give it away for free. I spend months to years growing something and just hand it over. Although I’m not perfect I have a hard time letting things go. When I do i’m taken care of in a multitude of ways, paid back 10 fold. I wish I could share how to do it, but you are so wrapped up in the mess no explanation will do. To believe something without experience is hard. I would say you can’t or shouldn’t, but I will tell you there is a provider. It’s not you. Just follow your heart and be true to yourself and I think you will see and experience. It’s magical and unexplainable. Just try giving something away for free. 100% free not for promotion, not for ego, pure, no hidden strings, selfless. You will be repaid and you may learn a new way.

Tomato leaf with two issues. Do you know what it is?

Can someone hook me up with some Mashua. Seems everyone is sold out and kinda out of season 🥹

Um poison ivy. Wtf is these comments.

Odd this shows up after I just got done. Now im sitting on the computer waiting for the power to go out.

I wish the algorithm would figure out I do not care about growing potatoes or weed.

Radish and carrot leaves are underrated. Might me my favorite.

How I plant an Apple tree in clay. 1. Dig decent size hole. 2. Remove all media off roots. You don’t want bark and other junk rotting in the hole. 3. Spread roots outward and begin covering roots in layers. Watering as you go. 4. Mulch and add a wind break and shade cloth. This isn’t rocket science, yes clay holds water but I root tons of plants in pure water. The issue is when you put “soil” in with the clay. Soil these days is bark, sticks, peat, etc. Not soil at all. Do not add this, it’s what rots then leads to root rot. I have the luxury of having woods. I dig some top soil under the leaves from my gulleys from the south side. I do add a little worm castings, well finished compost, and leaf mold. Tiny amounts all you are doing is adding microbes not making “drainage”.

Too much green around. Needed more color.

I recently learned. “Crab Apples” are the same genus, no separate species designation that sets them apart from regular apples. Therefore scientifically there is no such thing as a crab apple. It’s just a name we give all small apples.

They say dill needs 12in of soil minimum as it has a large tap root. Also says space them 12in apart and well draining soil. Total 6in of soil here. Some kind of produce crate, lined with row fabric and clear plastic on that. First 3inches nothing but clay from the yard. Next 3 inches is compost and leaves on top of it. No holes except in the side 1.5in up. Just in case it turns into a pool. It’s been in this spot for 1 year. Dill is not spaced at all and there is a strawberry in the middle. Both thriving. I haven’t touched it, no water no fertilizer. Break all the rules.

Was this a video sent from and apple device to an android device? I’m getting some kind of ptsd.

Mulberry > Blackberries and Raspberries

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It’s hard around here. Nurseries just bulk order and up sell. Otherwise have little knowledge about plants. Also stock a lot of boring things. I called “native” tree works in Memphis. They still have a covid voice mail message. Said they check it every hour. Never got a call back. Half these places you ask for a plant and they just ghost you or act like you’re speaking another language. Most just sell easily propagated stuff and call it a business. Today however I came across Larry with Southern Cultured Orchards. Very close to me and never knew about him. Called and went to his house. Sat in the high tunnel for a few hours talking about plants. Ended up finding many plants I was looking for. Most are native to this area, but everyone I talk to have no idea about them. He did and he had them. I was blown away. He had a ton of Apple varieties. Had them separated by state. Not only did he have our natives he has the “best” cultivars. Example a Chickasaw plum but like double the fruit size. Mulberries too. I’m very grateful for people like him. It starts feeling a bit lonely not having intelligent people to talk to about plants. Crazy right. Plants, something that’s been here forever. Things that feed us. Yet majority of society is ignorant about it and treat it as just another way to get money. Influencers too. They just copy stuff from the 70s and call it their idea or do some weird crap just for view that makes zero sense. It’s sad, whatever, rambling now.

So the ufo disclosure a troll? I’m not surprised.