I pray for him too. Every damn night.
Addiction KILLS people.
Mental illness KILLS people.
Both of these issues have destroyed countless homes and have taken many of my friends away from their families.
Let’s hope that God can guide Ben through the dark.
Tbh, It absolutely kills me to see him go scorched earth like this. Even now, with my own name ran through the dirt, I truly hope he finds the strength to overcome this manic state. Simply put, he needs help. Real help.
There’s a BIG difference between getting real help vs spending a day or two in a psych ward.
Working on yourself takes YEARS. As a sober man, I’m speaking from experience; I have the scars to show. Acceptance is everything and you’re only as sick as your secrets. It absolutely kills me to watch someone struggle like this.
What hurts us all the most is that we know there’s a REAL guy deep down in there somewhere. He made us laugh. He made us cry. He taught us about crypto. Somewhere along the way, we lost those videos when he would drive to church on Sundays. I’m not sure where that Ben went, but I surely hope we get to see him again.
The sad part is…that “good guy” we know, he’s LOST right now, and he might be too far out to swim his way in. I hope he finds courage within to be honest with himself.
I know what healing is and I know what healing is not. Healing is NOT going away for a weekend and coming back with an even BETTER conspiracy than the last. Healing is taking as much time as you need to find true north and to make amends with the people you hurt. (Sadly, some people are incapable of honesty and humility and consequently will never take that step. This is the path of a coward.)
I don’t need to make this tweet, but I want to. I want you guys to know that I tried. I want you to know that I’m tired of trying. I want you guys to know that I left Hit Network and never looked back. JChains and I NEVER accepted 1,500 a week to “sabotage” anything. That’s delusional. Today Ben burned the only two bridges he had left, and of course, it had to happen publicly, and of course, he doesn’t see how bad it makes him look. I am truly embarrassed. This is top shelf CRINGE. But even now, I pray.
Ultimately, I stayed silent on this for a while because I was told Ben was getting help. A few days ago, someone told me that Ben wanted to make things right with me after he destroyed my computer on Super Bowl weekend. Not sure what happened to that, because today, I woke up to this. It literally NEVER ends. Grade A train-wreck. And the INSANE part, to me, is that Ben, to this day, plays the victim to no end. He never did ANYTHING wrong. Three kids lost a dad, but he’s perfect. It kills me inside, it really does.
It runs so deep, Cassie even got MAD at me last week when I tweeted that Ben was “alive and safe.” Do you know how CRAZY and MANIPULATED a situation has to be where “it’s all your fault” just because you said someone was alive and safe?
I’VE LOST TOO MANY FRIENDS FOR ANYONE TO LIE ABOUT OR THREATEN A SUICIDE.
I was told my TWO separate people that he was going to stage his own death. Do you realize how much it hurt me to even type that last sentence? Do you see how CRAZY that is? This wasn’t even 10 days ago, but now he’s “totally okay” and EVERYONE ELSE is evil? Got it! 👌
It’s literally fucking insane.
Guys, I’m about to become a father. I need to put all of this behind me and focus on my family. (And that’s EXACTLY what I’m working on doing.)
In the same breath, I will not tolerate my name being pulled through the mud by anyone in a state of manic delusion. I will stand up for myself. I will defend myself. I will fight back, but only as a last resort.
I’m making my best effort to handle this with grace and class. I will continue to put my best foot forward and be the man I know I am.
Despite his transgressions, I will continue to pray for Ben Armstrong. If you read this entire tweet, I implore you to say a prayer for him too.🙏