19 years old ☆ edtwt ☆ 5'4
Joined September 2023
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May 22
Hello. Im not new to edrtwt, in fact Ive been on and off it since I was 11... I am #relapsing so this is like a homecoming to me.
height: 162cm
hw: 108kg
cw & lw: 64kg (I know its bad, I know...)
ugw: 43kg
gw by August: 54kg
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Unfort I do think a reality check I very much needed in the early days of my ilness was just how big I actually was bc I was setting my ugw at like bmi 28 and being like "oh yeah, then Ill be happy" like girl that's not even healthy yet. Youre still gonna be big as hell at bmi 22
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I'll never wear tank tops. I wont be lounging at the pool in a bikini top and trunks. Ill never wear shorts. I'll never let someone see me naked, even if it means always being alone. My body will always disgust me and that's my curse.
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And I dont want to fear monger to ppl with high sw, Im not saying you'll always feel like a monster. Moreso just venting about my own insecurities and also my own shock at how shallow this victory is.
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Let's freaking go 🚶♂️💪🔥 stayed strong even though Im in a plateau and got LOTS of steps (well for me anyway) and now Im falling asleep before midnight with my cat purring like a fucking Subaru on my chest
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Fiona retweeted
yes i will give you ed tips actually! dont start doing anything unhealthy you dont already do. dont start vomiting don’t start using lax don’t start smoking cigarettes don’t fast for days on end. the best ed tip i can give anyone is don’t start with this shit. seek help now.
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I think Ive been eating too late to get a proper read on the scale. Mb I should try having my last meal earlier in the evening to give my body more time to digest? Lately Ive been eating at ~11pm and weighing myself at 7am. Is that long enough or do I need to change my schedule?
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Cause Ive been in a calorie deficit I know that for a fact but Im stuck at 131lbs and I have no idea why. I lose after doing a 72 hour fast but Im hesitant to do another one too soon bc I dont want to screw up my metabolism so bad
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I think Im gonna take a break from fasting and continue doing 2mad at least 10k steps a day just to adjust to this routine. Fasting is great for quick weight loss but Ive been doing it too much and its not sustainable
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I only have 36lbs to go to my ugw which considering where I started is CRAZY
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Jun 15
Actually I think I just deserve to be alone forever Im a terrible person to be close to
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Jun 15
Do any other butch lesbians feel like their ed kind of contradicts their butchness? I understand its a disorder and it's not inherently feminine and wtv, but it feels in direct conflict with the nonconformity and, strangely enough, beauty standards that create the butch identity
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Jun 15
I dont think anyone else will really relate to this bc I do see many butches on edtwt but idk Im here so maybe others are too 🤷
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Jun 15
Gonna go camping with my friend sometime soon and Im quite excited bc I plan on using that as a metab weekend. If Im, God forbid, still maintaining, it should hopefully help. I'll still be very mindful of what I eat and try not to go over 1500 cals each day but it should be good
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Jun 14
Scientifically I should be losing weight so I'll just be patient and keep doing what Im doing
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