also if it makes anyone feel better, in my fic where bertha gets shot instead of george, it takes place like ten minutes after this sceneβ¦i hate myself, i am no kinder than julian
what makes this scene so much more devastating is because we know how much strength she has and how she can usually just let things roll off her back, but sheβs just so broken and defeated here and you can tell sheβs just had enough π george russell, istg when i catch you