To the few of you who follow me here, I apologize as I know its normally for gaming things, but I need to get this off my chest and quite frankly out of my mind.
All night and all yesterday after the death of
@charliekirk11, I have been wrestling with anger that has seemingly held me captive. I am not mad at the left or liberals as many seem to be. I am not mad at the ignorant responses of people celebrating the death of another human being on social media. I am not even mad at the news organizations like CNN or MSNBC.
No, I am angry at the whole situation. I am angry at the way this country and world have been heading for several years now. I am angry that the events that continue to unfold are beginning to wear away my empathy. I am angry that my heart and mind are being taken from me to where I can no longer seem to filter out the feeling of wanting vengeance and revenge. The feeling of hoping to see the smug smiles wiped from the faces of people who are so disgusting in the way they speak about or treat other human beings.
I am angry that there is this small voice in the back of my mind that WANTS to see people pay for their sins publicly. To have their lives destroyed for the way they destroy others. The way I feel the desire for an eye for an eye to be the way of the world moving forward. I am angry at my sanity being taken from me.
Today we should be remembering one of the worst days in the recent history of the United States as we remember 9/11, but instead we must continue to mourn more death. A school shooting and a murder in front of hundreds of kids at two schools.
We must turn back. We must rescue ourselves from ourselves before there is nothing left to save. We must choose empathy and compassion over anger and resentment. We must choose forgiveness over fear and destruction. How much more can we take if we continue in this direction?