Have you ever closed your eyes and felt yourself screaming at the top of your lungs? Tears falling, lips sealed, yet inside everything is breaking apart. No sound leaves your mouth, but the pain echoes through every part of you. Some hurts are so deep that the loudest screams are the ones no one ever hears.
i never want a man to settle for me. Go find your dream woman, and if you can't find her, don't use me to fill the gap. I want mine clingy, passionate, reassuring, unapproachable, God fearing, and locked in on me only.
God, if I’m meant to be alone, please take away this constant desire to be loved. Take away the part of me that still looks for someone in every room, the part that still believes there’s a person out there who will finally choose me and stay. Because wanting something this deeply while learning to live without it feels like carrying a quiet ache everywhere I go.
Crazy how avoidants can turn a secure partner into an anxiously attached person, then suddenly leave saying they can’t do this anymore while their partner is left drowning in self-doubt and abandonment trauma.
normalize leaving people to avoid empathy burnout. yes, i love you, but i am tired of having to ask you to consider me, and i am tired of you not seeing where you went wrong.
It's selfish to enter someone's life, see that they're a loving, cheerful, and good person, and decide to ruin their present because you haven't dealt with your own issues. Leave people alone if you have no intention of showing up with sincerity.
Some nights I still pick up my phone and check for a message I already know isn’t coming. Not because I’m waiting for a text, but because a part of me misses how things used to be. It’s strange how someone can go from being the first person you talk to every day to someone you no longer hear from at all. The conversation ended, but the habit of missing them never really did.
A dismissive avoidant won’t fight for you.
They’ll just wait for you to give up, so they don’t have to be the bad guy.
It’s cowardly behavior...
Most aren’t honorable, and their character often mirrors their relationship patterns distant, defensive, and dishonest.