Whatever you do on your phone on the subway, whatever podcast you listen to on your walk, whatever work you knock out at your desk… maybe that isn’t the entire world. Maybe, beyond the freneticism of what is digital and specialized, a deep patient world is waiting for you. Behind your screens, outside of cubicles, in the mind of that person whose shoulder brushed yours on the subway yesterday.
The things you suppress when scrolling on screens, when working at desks, when making your headphones louder than the conversation around you… in the modern world, these become anxieties. In the deeper world, our unique thoughts and feelings are at the center. The deeper world is colorful and illegible and a shrine to the uncategorizable idiosyncrasy in each of us. It’s where people are happy.
It’s good at hide and seek though, this deeper world. It hides when screens are out. Hides also when an inbox notification jumps up atcha and makes ya feel like there is something you absolutely-without-excuse-really-should-do.
There are occasions though when it peeks out of hiding and locks eyes with you. When someone around you dies. Or is born. Or gets married. Big events are the classic hints. They shock us out of our freneticism, hopefully, and into a world of meaning.
But when big events are rare, and small things ask for your attention at every turn, this world of meaning is hard to find.