i was listening to robert greene yesterday and he said something that stuck with me, how having toxic bosses all his life helped him write 48 laws of power.
it made me pause. i realized i’ve always chased suffering. not because i enjoy it, but because i want to understand it. i’ve explored it through spirituality and self-growth.
ram dass said, “suffering is grace.” goggins and jocko say it differently, but mean the same: pain sharpens you.
in my life, whenever things feel too complacent, too flat, i seek challenges that break me down again. that’s why i don’t vent or complain. I KNOW I CAN GET OUT ANYTIME, but in the moment i want to face the darkness fully.
my darkest periods are when i feel closest to god. suffering strips away everything fake, makes me grateful for the good times, and keeps my ego in check.
for me, putting myself in situations where i suffer feels like the highest form of agency.
every time, the ego cracks a little more. every time, i walk out freer.