just absolutely vile, you are a genuinely bad person, i hope you receive the energy you're giving, seethe and rage all you want, i'm happy, you can't take away my joy just because you hate yourself so violently
like. you got one chance at life and you ruined it. ggwp. that's it. you don't get another. it's over.
I don't think you should even bother taking your 0.2mg/week placebo. you'd be mentally better off living as a man and wondering "what if" than experiencing a failed transition.