My goodness. I was just at my local H-E-B. It was an absolute madhouse. It's never a good sign when you have to park in the next parking lot over. Approaching the store, I felt a keen sense of dread, envisioning the sea of humanity, the carts blocking the aisles, the cacophony of sound. And for the first five minutes, it felt like a life and death struggle with forces of mighty chaos. But then I thought of
@raywylie 's admonition: "the days in which I keep my gratitude higher than my expectations, I have good days." I realized that I was fighting the vibe, and it was so unnecessary.
So I looked again. There was a kid, smiling at me, uncertain what to make of my tall, lanky body and catastrophic white hair. The shelves were full and people were talking about recipes and what they needed. I heard somebody say "we need to get the stuff for green bean casserole." And I thought of that dish, that wonderful dish that (blessedly) only appears once a year but, when it does appear, marks occasions filled with laughter and wine and, now, memories of friends and family long gone. Then I thought of the suffering in the world --- the real suffering --- and felt bad for having mentally complained, initially, about there being so many people in a place of such abundance. There are people on the planet facing desperate situations --- heck, people in North Carolina facing Thanksgiving without their homes --- and I'm frustrated because I can't find artichoke hearts?
Then, when I checked out Robin, my checker, was wearing a pin indicating that she'd been at HEB for 37 years and my bagger had one on indicating that he'd been there for 16 years. I talked to Robin as she was whipping those groceries through the scanner and I said "37 years ... have you been a checker all that time?" She said that she'd worked in the bakery and also stocked shelves at night but that she likes being a checker because "that's where the action is" and because she "likes meeting the people." I smiled. She wished me a happy Thanksgiving, as did the bagger, James.
I was halfway out the store when James tapped me on the shoulder and said "you almost left your jalapenos on the counter." Holy cow ... I'd have been mad if I'd got all the way home and realized that one of the key ingredients for my jalapeno-orange cranberry sauce was missing. But I didn't, because James noticed them still in the bagging area and tracked me down. As I was wheeling my cart out around and thought "You're with your people. There are your people." I got back to my car, loaded up nine bags of groceries, got in, noticed what a beautiful day it is, cranked up the Ray Wylie Hubbard, and drove away.
It's all about perspective. Thank you Robin and thank you, James and H-E-B and Ray Wylie Hubbard and all of the wonderful Texans who've contributed so much to this page and ... well, y'all get the picture.