Hey everyone,
Iโll start this off for everyone who did reach out to me after the other night with concerns etc. It does mean a lot.
Now for the tough part to talk aboutโฆ
I have been thinking about quitting for some time now, probably going back as far as August, I donโt seem to be the same person I was mentally etc, Iโm doing things I wouldnโt usually do that go against my morals and standards. But also with some other things over the last few months I canโt mention here, I have been letting things get to me that I usually donโt, itโs a bit hard to sort of describe the emotions I have been feeling, fed up, mentally drained etc.
And the worst part is, I didnโt really speak to anyone how Iโve been feeling properly, I didnโt speak to a lot of my mates about it etc, I locked myself away for a lot of the part, and then the other night, I felt no value or nothing to my own community or other communities Iโve been part of and decided to leave everything
I wonโt speak about every little bit here.
But I wanna thank
@sumBee_ ,
@MajorLeeX and SinfulMedusa, 3 people who really got through to me on the whole situation, who really understood everything and how I felt, as well as other things that have happened and all
Iโm not ready to give up something thatโs changed my life for the better the last 7 years, but I do need to make changes, I need to be patient, I need to learn to look after myself alot more better and to open up to people that do actually care, which I do struggle with a lot
For anyone who was genuinely worried or concerned, i deeply do apologise and I love you all dearly and I shouldnโt of been ready to throw something away knowing the fact I wasnโt the same person as I had been the last 2 - 3 years as well
I hope you can all understand my situation, you all mean the world to me, I wouldnโt be where I am now without you guys and Iโm hoping I will be ready to go further and achieve a lot more than I have
I love you all so much, Iโm so sorry โค๏ธ
JaydonICN